Awake at 1:45 am.. YAY.

I have to work in the morning. I have to be UP at 0530 minimum. So why.. OH WHY am I awake at 1:45? It's all thanks to the combo of pain meds for my back pain and sleep. Apparently the two together lead to crazy wild dreams.

Anyway..

Went on a date with the Ex-bf last week.. was pretty awkward but nice... which lead to him coming over to hang out Sunday night for coffee at my house and a nice drive in my new car (he hadn't driven in the new Passats and wanted to take it out.) Anyway long and short at the end of the night he kissed me and everything seemed reaaaally nice.

I am still talking to and very much like the other man I've been seeing and I wanted to be honest with the ex and ask him where we were at right now. I told him I needed to know if he was ok with or wanted me seeing other people. (It's only fair.. had he said no I would have stopped. I did pursue him, after all, and he deserves for me to give him his full attention if that's what he desires) The answer kinda shocked me.

First.. no.. We are just "casually" dating and I am free to continue dating other said boy.
Second... "It's ok because I'm really not feeling a spark here like I did before..."

Wait, wait.. back up. What?! Seriously. He met me for coffee last sunday. Immmmmmmmediately asked me out to dinner which happened thursday. Then sunday asked me out again only this time offered to just "come hang out over there." We watched a movie and he was all kinda snuggly with me at that time and then at the end of the night when he hugged me he got this HUGE grin on his face and asked me "does this count as a second date?" and before I could even answer him he laid this "first kiss" style smoochin on me. Honestly it took my breath away for a second.. I was surprised by him. And now.....? Not really feelin' it? REALLY? Wow.

I guess I'm actually not too terribly dissapointed. I knew it was a probability.. I had hurt him pretty badly back in November.. but I honestly didn't expect it after this last week.

I do really like this other man alot. He's got something about him.. I can't get enough of him. He's mysterious and fascinating and a lot of fun. I would love to know more about him and why he's so "anti-relationship." He seems to have some commitment issues from something or somethings that has happened to him in the not-so-distant past that have carried over into his feelings on commitments (not that I am asking for one by any means) and his relationships now. I absolutely adore him though.. Just can't get enough. I'm perfectly happy with the way things are now... just would be wonderful to get to know more about him.

On ANOTHER note....


I'M GOING TO FLORIDA!!!!!!!!

So Jenn and I planned as last minute as HELL trip to Ft. Lauderdale, FL. We are staying at a resort on the beach and flying in Saturday morning, coming home Tuesday afternoon. I'm so freaking stoked. She's paying for flight and hotel because she was planning on going anyway and I really didn't have the money to go.. and by bringing me with her she gets to go on her cancelled vacay after all. How exciting is that?? I love that girl. We are going to have so much fun!!!

In other news we also tossed around the idea of us getting a 3-4 br house to rent together when both our leases are up coming next November (six months!!) It would be fantastic to have someone to share household bills with and Jenn is by far the most responsible person I know.. Way more than me even and I have yet to ever find anyone I trusted enough to be a roomate with my son. She loves kids and is already talking about how she can take him to school if I'm at work on her off days, etc etc. I love that girl.. we will make awesome roomates if this pans out. I sincerely hope it does... It well help me out tremendously.

In other news.. I got my acceptance letter to chamberlain college for the summer semester starting in June. I keep missing my guidance counselors calls though to find the next step. I know I need to fill out FAFSA I just haven't had time unfortunately. Hopefully I will know more friday when we get in touch with eachother.

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH and ONE MORE THING!!!

My sister and her hubby found out today they are having a girl!!!! YAY!!!! A girl in the family :) Ethan is soooooooooo excited and he keeps calling her La-Loo (Her name is Leilani Marie) HAHA.. it's so damn cute. I can't wait till he (and all of us) get to meet her in october. She's due right around E's birthday. How awesome would that be???


Ok.. Bedtime for jen.