Florida.. Here we come~!

You floridians have no idea what you're in store for.

Oh yes... You.. You in your souped up golfcart with shiney rims that you're driving down to the local pharmacy to pick up your blood pressure meds.. AND YES YOU.. crazy pain in the ass party kids who are there to get crunk and think they can pick up a one night stand....

You are in for an interesting weekend. See... Jenn and Jen are hitting the beach. Wear your BlueBlockers baby cause a pale ass redhead is going to pretend that the sun doesn't hate her like a fatman hates diet soda. I get to enjoy being a scathing bitch to random freaky dudes who try to pick me up... WHY? Because I'm on vacay and BY-GOSH I'm allowed to enjoy myself.. even if it's through other peoples misery.

Flight leaves at 7:20AM on saturday.. so we get to enjoy most of saturday, all of sunday and monday in St. Petersburg. We leave out Tuesday after lunchtime and get home around 5:45. I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited.

I haven't had a true vacation since my baby sis and I went to vegas 3 years ago. I'm really looking forward to this. I can't thank Jenn enough for taking me with her and for paying my way. I'm still absolutely floored that she did that. I love having really great friends. She's one in a million. I can't imagine ANYONE else wanting to spend time with their friend so much that they'd put out that kind of money for a last second, spur of the moment, totally spontaneous vacation. If you don't know it already.. I love ya girlie. I really can't tell you how much I value your friendship.

Tomorrow I get to go to the Ortho doc about my back (the guy the hospital sends me to since the the workmans comp accident) and then 12:00 waxing (hey a girl needs to be bathing suit ready) and then off to find a swimsuit and maybe a pair of shorts or a mini. Hoping to drag Terra from work along with me for the shopping. She seemed like she wanted to go too.

Alright.. Enough of this. Night!

~J

Awake at 1:45 am.. YAY.

I have to work in the morning. I have to be UP at 0530 minimum. So why.. OH WHY am I awake at 1:45? It's all thanks to the combo of pain meds for my back pain and sleep. Apparently the two together lead to crazy wild dreams.

Anyway..

Went on a date with the Ex-bf last week.. was pretty awkward but nice... which lead to him coming over to hang out Sunday night for coffee at my house and a nice drive in my new car (he hadn't driven in the new Passats and wanted to take it out.) Anyway long and short at the end of the night he kissed me and everything seemed reaaaally nice.

I am still talking to and very much like the other man I've been seeing and I wanted to be honest with the ex and ask him where we were at right now. I told him I needed to know if he was ok with or wanted me seeing other people. (It's only fair.. had he said no I would have stopped. I did pursue him, after all, and he deserves for me to give him his full attention if that's what he desires) The answer kinda shocked me.

First.. no.. We are just "casually" dating and I am free to continue dating other said boy.
Second... "It's ok because I'm really not feeling a spark here like I did before..."

Wait, wait.. back up. What?! Seriously. He met me for coffee last sunday. Immmmmmmmediately asked me out to dinner which happened thursday. Then sunday asked me out again only this time offered to just "come hang out over there." We watched a movie and he was all kinda snuggly with me at that time and then at the end of the night when he hugged me he got this HUGE grin on his face and asked me "does this count as a second date?" and before I could even answer him he laid this "first kiss" style smoochin on me. Honestly it took my breath away for a second.. I was surprised by him. And now.....? Not really feelin' it? REALLY? Wow.

I guess I'm actually not too terribly dissapointed. I knew it was a probability.. I had hurt him pretty badly back in November.. but I honestly didn't expect it after this last week.

I do really like this other man alot. He's got something about him.. I can't get enough of him. He's mysterious and fascinating and a lot of fun. I would love to know more about him and why he's so "anti-relationship." He seems to have some commitment issues from something or somethings that has happened to him in the not-so-distant past that have carried over into his feelings on commitments (not that I am asking for one by any means) and his relationships now. I absolutely adore him though.. Just can't get enough. I'm perfectly happy with the way things are now... just would be wonderful to get to know more about him.

On ANOTHER note....


I'M GOING TO FLORIDA!!!!!!!!

So Jenn and I planned as last minute as HELL trip to Ft. Lauderdale, FL. We are staying at a resort on the beach and flying in Saturday morning, coming home Tuesday afternoon. I'm so freaking stoked. She's paying for flight and hotel because she was planning on going anyway and I really didn't have the money to go.. and by bringing me with her she gets to go on her cancelled vacay after all. How exciting is that?? I love that girl. We are going to have so much fun!!!

In other news we also tossed around the idea of us getting a 3-4 br house to rent together when both our leases are up coming next November (six months!!) It would be fantastic to have someone to share household bills with and Jenn is by far the most responsible person I know.. Way more than me even and I have yet to ever find anyone I trusted enough to be a roomate with my son. She loves kids and is already talking about how she can take him to school if I'm at work on her off days, etc etc. I love that girl.. we will make awesome roomates if this pans out. I sincerely hope it does... It well help me out tremendously.

In other news.. I got my acceptance letter to chamberlain college for the summer semester starting in June. I keep missing my guidance counselors calls though to find the next step. I know I need to fill out FAFSA I just haven't had time unfortunately. Hopefully I will know more friday when we get in touch with eachother.

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH and ONE MORE THING!!!

My sister and her hubby found out today they are having a girl!!!! YAY!!!! A girl in the family :) Ethan is soooooooooo excited and he keeps calling her La-Loo (Her name is Leilani Marie) HAHA.. it's so damn cute. I can't wait till he (and all of us) get to meet her in october. She's due right around E's birthday. How awesome would that be???


Ok.. Bedtime for jen.

Men are nothing but trouble.

I don't understand men.

The one I was chasing after for months who in my opinion had made it quite clear the last few weeks that he wanted nothing to do romantically with me has come back around.. Just as I was talking to and hanging out with someone else who I really think I could like a lot.

THEN.. said other boy gets all distant and I find out theres someone else who he's all upset over but won't talk to me about the details. I'm ok with that, I understand that it was just hanging out and nothing serious.. But I really got the feeling that he liked me a lot. I was kinda stunned by the fact that I apparently misread him completely.

I apparently suck at men in general and need to just go back to the previous six months' attitude of "I don't need them"

~j

So tired of the pain...

Seriously I'm so sick of pain that I don't know what to do. I can completely see how people get so depressed they want to hurt themselves from chronic pain problems. It's been over a year and a half now. I'm so frustrated because I will go a few weeks feeling really awesome and then BLAM it kicks me back down.

I've had the best last few weeks.. I've been doing great at work, rarely any PAIN... just discomfort. I came home yesterday feeling pretty uncomfortable and ended up taking some pills before bed. Today I was back to my usual pain-free self until about 4pm. By 6 I was in tears.. completely bitchy and unable to handle any kind of stress. So frustrated...

So frustrated and confused in so many aspects of my life right now... Bur I am happy overall.. I guess that's all you can ask for!

~j

Blah blah blah...

I have had an interesting few days...

So theres this boy. Yeah that's all you get.

Also Got to see Melissa this weekend for the first time since I went to her new house in NC back in June. Only got to spend 2.5 hrs with her before the sun thoroughly baked me. I'm a crispy fried redhead.. and now it's itchy.

Mothers day dinner at my house was good but I still have a mass of dishes to do. I've been lazy.

Ethan got me a sweet card that sings and he practiced it and walked around singing the chorus from Tim McGraws "Beautiful Wings" all night. It was sooooo cute.

I will avoid ranting about my shitty shitty day at work today.. but I do think stupid people should be lined up and put out of their misery firing squad style.

Ok done.

~j

Diseased and miserable!

So on top of my strep.. Ethan is sick. He came home from daddy's running fevers and miserable. I took him to his pediatrician who said he had a virus and not strep. By wednesday night he was hitting 104 and not coming down with meds so I took him in to the ER just to make sure it wasn't anything more. We were there from 11pm until 2 am. Chest xray was clear, Flu swab was negative... sent home with no new answers.

Poor Ethan has been out of school all week and missed a field trip and the big mother's day tea that they had planned. He was very sad he couldn't serve me tea and actually sung me the songs here in the living room. It was very sweet. I'm hoping his fever drops and he can finally go back tomorrow because he's hating life stuck at home :(

Count your blessings.

It's hard to live life everyday thankful for everything you have. We all do it. Wasted time spent thinking about all the little things in life that you'd change or wish were better...

I found out today that my landlord and his wife's 10 wk old baby is headed to Johns Hopkins for major surgery on Thursday. He has Biliary Artresia. It's rare.. and unfortunately tends to lead to an eventual pediatric liver transplant.

It floored me. I guess because I realize how hard it is to cherish every second you have with your children.. It's so easy to get overwhelmed with the tantrums, the dirty house, the toothpaste on the counters, transformers all over the living room, etc. I forget how absolutely blessed I am to have such an amazing little boy. He's smart and witty, he's funny, he's silly, and most importantly he's wonderfully healthy and happy.

Love every second you have. Be grateful for the friends and family and kids in your life.

Gogogo Turbo!

Exciting weekend for Jen.

I took James the little man's soccer bag friday night around 5.. dropped it off at his work. I was planning on going shopping for some clothes since I'm down 20 lbs now (22 as of today.) His dealership is next door to the VW dealership......

Long story short I came home that night with a 2008 Volkswagen Passat with a 2l Turbo and some kick ass features and a yummy salesman....

YAY... soooooo much fun to drive. I can totally forsee getting into trouble in that baby. I'm super excited to have it though!

I left the dealership in my shiny new car and hit Cogans with my people. Was out till 12 am. Good times. Woke up.. went to work.. left work and went to Jen's coffee shop to help her out with her big fund raiser. I went home briefly to change and then spent several hours getting sunburned and helping her clean up and put everything away. After that we went to get some drinks to celebrate her fantastic work for the foodbank and I took her home.. Left her house, let dog out, went to indian and hit the New Belmont for some yummy beers. I had a pretty good weekend up till this morning......

Woke up this morning and I couldn't speak.. throat hurt so bad I couldn't eat all day. I went to work and suffered through the pain and the goofy jokes mocking my voice until 3. I went to moms after changing and picking up books to give Tara for studying and I surprised them with the new car. Mom seemed pretty excited.. she liked it alot. Dad on the otherhand... who knows. I know I made the best choice for me though.. that's all that matters.

So anyway I ended up at patient first after realizing just how fricken sick I really am (and thanks to some prodding from Nate) and sure as shit I have strep.

I HAVEN'T HAD STREP SINCE I WAS A KID!!

So I'm out of work tomorrow because the hospital thinks I'll cause an epidemic and I'm currently home alone on the couch feeling like shit. I still haven't eaten any solid food all day bc I don't feel like I could actually swallow it. I had some standby campbells chicken noodle and I'm filling up on water. Took the first dose of antibiotics in the waiting room on my way out of the docs. Haha.

At least it's not the Swine Flu...LOL.